Memory Lane:

Today I was thinking about a year ago when I was 30 weeks pregnant. I felt like my pregnancy went by so fast. Looking back on it, I liked being pregnant.. Even though I was fat, uncomfortable, I had horrible back pains, and I hated the "waiting process," but with all those things I still enjoyed it. Something about my first child and being able to have her and give birth to her made it all worth it. 

I had so many feelings a year ago to being happy with having a girl, worried thinking I won't be a good enough mother, stressed on how I was going to graduate and have a baby at the same time, sad thinking I wasn't ready to be a mom, all the pregnancy ups and downs. But looking back I couldn't be happier being able to get pregnant, having a healthy baby, no complications with the pregnancy or birth. I'm so grateful that I was able to have my sweet baby girl.

 I remember thinking when she was born, I didn't hear her cry or anything and the nurses took her to clean her off and everything, I was so worried that there was something wrong her with. But nothing was she was just quite and looked peaceful which is weird for newborn baby. When they brought her back to me I looked into her eyes and saw how beautiful she was I was in tears of joy, thinking how did I make such a beautiful baby? Why I'm so lucky to have her in my life? All these mixed feelings went through my head...  I thanked my Heavenly Father for sending her to us and blessing our lives with her. How amazing it is to know that someone loves you so much to send you a little gift of joy. I'm so grateful for my Father in Heaven for sending Olivia into our lives and letting us love her as much as He has.

Thanks for my friend Ariel for taking these photos of us when I was pregnant.